Sometimes 😐

I just realized...
I'm giving myself too much to do
Or maybe not.
Listen, I really want to test out the copy I come up with
And some other cool ideas as well
But this challenge....
Ugh! I just feel like...
When I start to think that way, I slip into a doom scrolling state.
I just start to scroll on my browser or search for apps on Play Store.
I tell myself
"You're doing this because you need to find out about this or that"
Maybe I'm lying to myself.
I realize that I'm actually trying to escape the one thing I need to do,
With all the activities I feel like I should do.
Want to know what that one thing is?
Practice.
I beat myself up 
A lot
But I'll try 
It's what I need to do. Practice.
Forgo what I like to do
Do what I need to.
That's all for now
Today was great but sometimes....

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